What do I write?
When all my words have been scraped off my ribs,
When I can’t see the difference of being numb and dead inside and still being a kid.
What do I write ?
When I am not living to have fun,
but to pay of the depts I don’t owe and serve time for bullets I didn’t even want to shoot from my gun.
What do I write ?
When my soul, holds memories.
And my mind, the pain.
What do I write?
When I miss myself when no one even noticed when she is gone,
When mirrors reflect face value but my skin is burning all the way to my bones.
What do I write?
When even the silence has stopped listening,
They say water has memory but even my tear has forgotten all things glistening
What do I write?
When I don’t want to be found,
And Im counting my each breath like a pound.
What do I write?
When all the bright places are also dark now,
And the people like home I have pushed away ; but how?
What do I write?
for my heart is too tired now,
loving someone unloved.
What do I write?
My soul couldn’t survive long enough,
To be loved again.
The bittersweet truth of life,
Time is a game.
Life in its essence,
Never stays the same.
