one day you love me.
one day you don’t.
i stop trying to figure out which version of you i’ll get.
because both hurt.
the love hurts.
the absence hurts more.
you say i’m your everything.
but everything shouldn’t feel this fragile.
everything shouldn’t turn into dust when you stop looking.
They say love has 2 sides
Sometimes it feels good sometimes it doesn’t,
But there is still a clear sky once in a while,
our love was always clandestine—
like late-night texts and hidden smiles,
like a song we only danced to in the dark.
i wonder if you ever saw me at all.
or just the idea of me.
the easy fix.
the stand-in.
the almost.
you turn away,
and i disappear.
Leaving no trace behind,
Like I don’t even exist.,
not because i want to,
but because i was never allowed to stay.
so this is what it feels like
to be loved in halves.
to be wanted in moments.
to be left in pieces.
and still—
i keep waiting
for the day you don’t change your mind.p
